My recent Visit to home...

Now I have to say its only a 'Visit' to home... not a 'Stay' at home...that reallly makes lots of difference in my life...or may be to that point to everyone's life...Since last 3years life has always been so different.. When I was away from home for the first time for my studies,.... I was always apprehensive of going home... right from planning-tellin mom dad nd chinni tat we are plannin to come home--booking tickets -- packing bags -- goin to station before time -- while all these, continously communicate with mom nd dad about your whereabouts... starting from room...boarding auto.... reaching station... searchin for your seat in the train...talking about who is next to you...
Hmmm... All these have become a routine since 3years :)
There is no more anticipation... and now this has become a Routine....Somehow I felt that my recent visit to home has been a long one... Long as to say not the boring-Long type... Its was a lonvely-Long stay at home... :) though it was only for 4days...
While I was returning in the bus, I decided to pen down my trip to home, as it has been a renewal to all old feelings which have become a Routine :)
Day by Day (only 4days: D) I used to roam around the house… the living room…hurriedly thinking what to do next… “What is the thing that I was waiting to do at home???”… As if I am eager to get some joyful…or some kind of a job done… I had my house to myself…, I have decided to check out my cupboard & thought of dusting it… which turned to a leisure act of loving memories which flashed my mind..…was reading my collection of greeting cards which I’ve preserved from my childhood…. Read those cute letters which we wrote to each other when we were in school…soon the familiar faces flashed before me in school uniforms… I smile and think about them… donno how they all are… though I’ am in touch with few of them…asking God to bless them wherever they are… I wonder how we used to blackmail each other with those letters :)
Then there were these cluttered books…my notebooks and few text books I own of the subjects I love, “when are you going to remove those? And sell it off to the paper wala..?” my mom growls from time to time… I raise my eyebrows and shrug my shoulders and whisper… Never! :)… The clutter of my books is a familiar part of me… I run my fingers over them as a loving touch of friend to friend…. Those talks in the class… the drawings in the notebooks… sometimes prepared notes seriously….writing names in the books… scribbled papers… writing songs and playing antakshari… and then my Symbiosis notes… where I;v put 1book for 2 subjects first which came down to 1book for all subjects in last year… hehehehe… the notes I prepared during classes… the problems explained by my friends… those programs… spl C++ and C… again the Talks among friends in the class which we used to write and pass it on … exam timetable…Halltickets… assignments written in a paper… contacts of friends written in a paper and folded… still there in my notes :)… those important questions told in the class were written in the books, anticipating that they would repeat in exams :)…
I had all my halltickets preserved… now I read that… and recollect the subjects I had… the lecturers… their class… how we used to scold and do all non-sense in the class….College IDcards preserved :)/… Library cards preserved… remembering how we used to fight for books before the exams… forget the library card at home… and then hiding the books in some other selves…Great are those memories…. I kept talking with chinni about our school days… college days… she also started feeling nostalgic and started checking out her cupboard… The music of the memories stopped and our dusting is done!!
As the afternoon shadows flicker…. Me and chinni both stood at the window… watching the dancing leaves in the hot sun…Gazing out of our room window is one of the best things that we do at home…. I’was loving it… the thought of having a coffee! But we need to hav lunch… then started watching TV…I sit on the cradle in the living room… which seams to be a BIG HOT SEAT at home :D …. watching TV, this time also the advertisements… :)Then suddenly we both think of doing something that we haven’t thought of in a long time.. We think of cleaning the aquarium, but there were no fishes so we decide to get few… but then it was very hot sun so we thought of getting them the next day… The next day we did a lot of shopping of small things that seemed to be a memorable outing… its been days we go out of home together on the vehicle to the roads nearby… find a parking…to get something….walking along the old streets…buying things in the same old shops…walking back deciding who will drive the vehicle home :)… we then cleaned the fish-tank… put the fishes…and then started watching them play…we decide what kind of fishes did we get... “ look at that one… huh! That one seams to be a stupid boy… running behind the other fish… which seams to be a quite girl…” then suddenly one of the fishes stops… we think its sleeping… challo don’t disturb them :)we will watch a movie on system… then we go back to the system and I try to switch it ON… and chinni starts telling me… how much the system troubles her…it takes lot of time to switch it ON… “It needs an extension cord… to be connected to the speakers…” Oh! God…! Now search for extension cord at home… I doesn’t know what kind of the problem the computer has… each time I go home…she tell me something.. teaching me the way to handle it… or start it… or shutting it down… Finally we made the arrangements for watching movie… started it…then mom comes talking about something that happed last week… hmmm… there is no way of watching the movie along with me… I tell chinni… to watch when she is alone… and we switched it off…. That day Chakkani came home… she wanted me to draw and completed her biology record… again the interesting role for me to play ;) !! This time it was a frog… its been days I did this for my cousins or friends… I always loved to draw figures…tables…graphs…in the records… and most of the times it was me who did it for my friends… I even used to draw margins on the record papers for my friends… We started talking again… the same girlie-sister talks… and I was drawing the records… this is one of the things I like…drawing margins… then figures… then naming the parts… all in caps.. to the right side.. pointing with straight lines using scale….. now-and-then figuring out where I kept the eraser… scale or pencil… Hehehe.. the most common thing when you happen to draw something… I forget where I put these things… spl the eraser… though I used right before drawing this line… I then search for it…
:)Hmmm… Loving memories keep flooding sometimes…
As much as I treasure my family nd friends, I will be aware that my most important relations in life are always there beside me… in my good nd bad… Thank You, Lord, for the comfort of the little things that make my house my HOME :)

Desire to banish the boredom frm life

Since days I've this desire to get out and try something new... and I feel I must need to tackle this soon.... Its been playin in my mind to start a new hobby... or to play my fav sport.. I need to take time sum day nd decide how Iam goin to do it.... and get started.. I need to banish this boredom from Life soon..!!

It`s time to enjoy everything that comes my way. After all, I have been working hard for the all the rewards both good and bad.... that life has been giving me these days.

Heres the list of things I'v been thinkin to do since long...
1. Learn car driving
2. Start a new hobby
3. Keep a Good diet ;) this wud b in my top list now
4. Blog daily
5. Keep reading some technical books to avoid the mistmatch btwn my knowledge and my wrk :(

6. Painting
7. Meet my frnds when I go home.
8. Dedicate atleast 15min a day for God.... I need to start reading Bible again... Though I strtd with is whn I came to blore... Now left it somewhr in the frst book of Genesis :(

There are many things tat keep addng to this list... but I need to plan for this ...
I may not be always what I expect or what I would think of myself.... Or may b sometimes even I am very far from wht I feel IAm ... Ther are few things I would wish to change in myself... and the first thing would be my anger... and I need more patience.. There are times when I keep sayin to myself... if only I could change, life could be better!! I sometimes look back my life and sigh with disgust when I see the wasted years.... sometimes I also look back and realize them to be wonderful moments in my life....

These all and even some of the decisions may seem to be an unimportant or perhaps even insignificant decision but ultimately those prove to be one of the most important turning points in life.....So it is always a good judgment to never minimize or neglect any decision.... We can never be sure of what it may lead to...!! rgt ?.... though there is always this "mistake factor" involved with me... Heheheh... wht ever plans I make nd decisions I take may turn out to be the opposite of what I expect... My decision always come out differently than I actually anticipate and perhaps something other than what I may have wanted.....But you and I cannot foresee the far future or the ultimate outcome as God knows it to be.... FAITH is important, in this process of making decisions...

Hmmm... hope sumday I will blog about all these points in my list :)