Message:Feelings - Points to think about...!

I've been to Joyce meyer meetings held in blore in Jan... (To all of you who donno who she is: She is a Evangelist. There was a prayer meeting and a devotional concert held in blore) She spoke about Feelings nd fogiveness this way... (I will put in few points taht i remember)

>> God wants us to have great relationships... knowing the word of God doest help us... doing it will do great things.. We should not forget that... God is asking us to forgive...

>> Greatest hiderance is our FEELINGS...we rely most on our feelings...some ppl dont do because they dnt feel like doing it...Yea..,because we dont feel like forgiving, or because we dont feel like talking to them... We dont want to forgive... But remember... No matter how you feel...you will never have that peace of mind... "Unless you forgive..."

>> These are the main things that we possess...
1. Spirit.
2. Soul.
3. Body.
We need to learn how to differentiate these...

>> Jesus was standin in front of a lake , nd the fisher man werer ready to go home in depair...They have not been fishing deep in the water. The same way we think that I've prayed but nothing has changed.... I have read bible but nothing has changed... I go to church but nothin has changed... but when Jesus told them to go fishing deep in the water, they got so many fishes that they signaled for others to help them... They dint feel like it.... They did it because God said them to go deep in the water... In the same way... We are suspicious.... judgemental...We dont want to be good... neither do we have the power to change... Stop askin your self how you feel like??? If he tells to forgive somebody then dont get hurt....

>> When we live by faith... thats Deeper LIFE....but when we start Living by feelings---- thats a shell..

>> Live in faith not with emotions.... emotions are like waves.... some times you dont have emotions.... when you need them... and many times when you dont need them, they are there... Emotions can really destroy us...
>> You dont have to be bad to get a bad idea...

>>When u have clutered with unfinised projects....realise that though u dont feel like doing, u need to do it, coz God has some promises in store for u...so say that "I will finish my course with Joy... God gonna give me ideas and dreams..." always learn to finish what you start...

>>Nothing (all you said and done) will be left except God... So put on love... like you put on clothes...choose to love

>> When you get angry... you feel like slapping but you can even choose to tlak and pray for them...its a previlage to choose what to do... live a deeper life than to live by feelings...

>> its wonderfull to feel but you cannot depend on feelins... he wants us to depend on him.... anythin that u depend on other than God will insult him-- thank god that he heard you

>> Some times, you are tormented because ur controlled by ur feelings so dont live by feelings

>> When u forgive you are set free..

>> Jesus dint feel like hanging on the cross... he sweated blood...he prayed for God's will...

Relations - Are hard to understand

I always ponder upon this...so many years have past and I sometimes feel like all the relations have costed me a lot...!! and, in the way of saving relations, we sometimes loose the escence of it...as it is said, the minute you close your hand and squeez tightly to hold the sand in your hand, the sand trickles through your fingers....you may holdon to the same of it, but most of it will be gone...!!

I think relations are always dynamic....there have been times in my life where I had best of friends in my life... and I have it all in my life... and then suddenly I realise that, I loose all the best of relations... Whoever the person is... I always get scared to get into the confortable zone.....these relations always run on my mind....I've read somewhere that, It is always important to know and gain understanding of who your primary and disowned selves are....

Sometimes we think everything is fine in our relationships... and all of a sudden you realise that everything is gone... At that moment I keep asking “where did I go wrong?” so I now realise that in any kind of a relationship, you always need to know WHAT NOT TO DO? or if possible you need to know WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU ARE WRONG?...Sometimes I become overly cautious because I have been hurt so many times.... I become suspecious and judgemental...

These relationships exist in our thoughts.....the relationship with another person is whatever we imagine it to be.... whether I love someone or hate someone, IAM RIGHT!!!....but now the other person may have the feeling of a completely different relationship with me, but what someone else thinks of me is also the part of my thoughts.... So the relationship with someone includes what I think of that person and what I believe s/he thinks of ME>??.....Thinking on this further, I can complicate it by imagining what the other person thinks is that whaat I think of him/her, but ultimately those are all I have......Sometimes its like Iam always viewing the relationships through the lens of my own consciousness and conscience....and offcourse my conscience says that I have the ability to distinguish whether my actions are right or wrong... maybe everyone feels the same..... and this is where the Ego clashes...!!!


A relation should always be strong enough to withstand whtever may come...When its a relation between partents nd children, it will superceed the need to understand each other...but in all other relations, at some point in our lives we will face the fact that relationships require some effort to keep them strong and positive.... but again this over cautiousness may loosen the sand in your hand...!! which is more terrible to bare...

I tried to list out all the things that bother me about other people....and when I think of them again, to be honest I have to admit that all of my complaints about others are really complaints about myself..... maybe because they never feel it to be wrong...??? why does that happen??... When I do any mistake, at some point later, I realise it... then y cant others???....It becomes difficult to understand a person and our relationship especially when sometimes we don’t even understand ourselves....BUT the more I get into relations, the more I get to know about myself...Most of the times at the end I realise the trait is in me... the trait to maintain any relation...that is because when we forgive, accept nd love ourselves, we learn to forgive, accept and love others too, as they are...And the more I think upon the relations....I understand my deep feelings,....emotions...thoughts...beliefs and intentions...and I finally get to know the most loving and harmonious relations...
I always wonder why do I feel good about myself one moment and bad at another moments????Why does a person change their attitude towards me from one day to the next??? Each one is a complex creature.....whose behavior is driven by emotion, beliefs,& their point of view.....and its that as long as you hold on to someone, you feel you are understanding the person.... but some point later.... you feel that you were never able to understand the same person.... and this "emotionally dramatic relationship" takes its form....and this makes me feel why I stayed as long as I did???....When I became aware of these unseen forces....I knew where to make the changes to avoid the roller coaster of emotions that I had been on....or on which i might be on...

After writting all this I really understand the importantance of gaining an understanding of who our primary and disowned selves are.... that is because I wish to understand and enjoy my relationships fully and also because I wish to be in relationship with the people who I actually choose to be in relationship with....and I choose people whom I admire excessively....or whom I value a lot....and there are always few qualities which are inate and I really judge, in others..Here we need to understand the meanin of disowned...which means you need to know that the other person has some quality that you have probably disowned in your ownself...

There is always either.....we will like people who are similar to us, and we hate people who are our disowned selves....This can b when you hate people who are selfish...because you are not selfish.... so you will usually choose as friends among those people who are similar to you.... OR..... we will be attracted to people who carry our disowned selves, either the positive ones or negative ones.....so usually we will enter into quite intense relationships with people who carry our disowned selves....this intense relation can again be a hatered or love...
The best part is that we can always CHOOSE a relation:)

Resolutions

I started with this long back, when I was at home for new year vacation.... but i could not publish as I was not able to think of any resolutions :D

I've never followed any new year resolution... maybe due to low will-power...or the fact that I never really wanted to follow... but as usual I want things to be little different this year also :)

Now I stare at this blank screen saved as draft..... thinking about what to write... thinking about my goals.., my expectation from myself.. I was reading over some of my old blog entries tonight...Well long back I've listed out few things I've been thinking to do... Most of them have been unfullfiled...hears an update on the list...
-- Yea! I went for Car driving last year... and that was fun, but again I dint go back to get my DL...I will do it soon as possible...
--Hmmm... I dnt start any new hobby yet... I cant even think of any as of now
-- Good Diet! well Iam on the way for it.. :P
-- I want to write every day for atleast any one month....It may not be January, but I’m going to try to make it for February..... If I fail I’ll try March. I’ll have 12 shots to do it, so I hope I succeed in any month.:P
--Reading technical books???? Naaah... I never did it atleast once after writing that blog... :P but yeaaah... I read many novels :) and I'am going to keep reading books... :)
-- Painting... a BIG Naaah again...! I never did it again after coming here... :(
--Yes... I met my old friends when I wnt home this time :) Soon I will upload those pics...
--Dedicating time to God!! Iam still on the way...

Year Gone - Sealed with a Prayer

2009! ...Another new year in my life... I try to think about what all I've been through last year.. I thought of writing what all I've experienced - .. since 31st Dec, I've been watchin in all the news channels which keep telecasting what had happend last year... May be an impact of watchin such News channels ;) and like them even I think about the struggles first then all the happiness I've been through... I cant putup all the things that happend with me with dates ;) , as I recollect... I'am gratefull to God for many of his Blessings...

1. FAMILY: Each day is a blessing to share our lives...a combination of happiness, anger nd struggles..a feeling of beign together for each other whtever may b the situation..The one who can scold me when Im wrong... one who can appreciate me for what ever I do.. :)

2. JOB: My job that connects me with so many different people around... Sweet friends with whom I frgt my wrld around... and collegues who make me grow in IT...

3. FRIENDS: My friends who lift up my spirits when Iam low... and who also teach me how to live by setting an example for me.. Who make me understand that life goes on...

4. DAYS: BEATUTIFUL days that just go by... my QUITE nd FAST mornings...when I wake up leisurely nd mornings whn I wake up late:)...running to catch my cab...then enjoy the breez by sitting at the window in the cab... being completly occupied by my thoughts - flying/dancing/sleepin/smiling/shouting/screaming doing all in my thoughts... PLEASENT days...which run past like a blink of an eye... HECTIC days where I forget my tensions...putting away my thoughts..and giving sum wrk for my idle brain - if not which could have been a devil's workshop...BORING days when all the watches in the world seam to work very slow - without which i would not have given much Time for myself...Time for my life... Time for my family...Time for my friends..Time for my thoughts...Time for every thing that I have grown in my mind and soul...

5. OTHERS: There are many Happy-Go-Lucky people around me who get what- all they want even before they struggle for it... or even before they need it... or even before they deserve it... These people make me strong...These people make me realise that life is not always a bed of roses...These people make me feel that I'am the kind of flower that grows under hot sun not the one that grows in shadows..and that many achievments in the world are accomplised by people who kept on working despite of beign tired and discouraged.

I thank God for everything...!
LIVE BIG... THINK BIG...

"We live by what we believe, not by what we can see" - Corth II 5:7

My LIFE is goin to be in propotion to how greatly I believe! :)

So Keep that FAITH and BELIEF 'ON'...!!

LIFE Just goes on...
"A year gone making us strong...path was long but we walked with song..There were fears n tears but we had also reasons for cheers...."

Wishing u all A relaxed mind, peaceful soul, joyful spirit, healthy body, A heart full of love....WISH YOU ALL A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009..:)

My Testimonials...

Today I was goin through my orkut testimonials... It feels so special reading those...Its actually very encouraging to be that 'someone special'...I read them many times and it really hits the head and offcourse my heart too..EVERYTIME!! There have been times when I used to bug my friends to write a testimonial for me.. ;)

I wish to add them to my blog, just like putting up a testimonial for ne othr human beign, its makes me feel important and special.. So here I go.. (Pasting them here.. :))

Dorcas(AKKA): Sweeetooo...This blonde is damn intelliengent..though shez yougner to me..i rely on her opinions manier times as i feel shez more matured in thinkign thaan mee....baby plzz put on ure wgt and stay healthy...cant c ya weak!..you have a logn way to go and im sure ull make it to the TOP!!!Allll the best darling..Love u lotsssssssssss.....God Bless You!

Divya(CHINNI-younger sis): hello ppl this my shweet dear fren..ooops sorry shez my sis...shez fun lovin...sensitive at times...creative...she goes blah blah blah..unles u tell her STOP IT....nd im missin her and her a lot..

Divya(CHINNI-younger sis UPDATED): You're my Honeybunch, SugarplumPumpy-umpy-umpkin, You're my Sweetie PieYou're my Cuppycake, GumdropSnoogums-Boogums, You're the Apple of my EyeAnd I like you so and I want you to knowThat I'll always be right hereAnd I love to sing sweet songs to youBecause you are so dear ........LUV U LOTS DARLING!!!!!!!uuummmaaahhh!!!!!

Nikhila(SISTER): Hey she is my gr8 sis,a fun luvin person who is luvd by everyone,nd ofcourse a blonde,I miss her a lot.luv ya rebakka.
Nikhila(SISTER-UPDATED): Hmm,wat to say about this blonde beauty,my darling sis..very cute, gorgeous, genious, goodlooking, Intellegent,One in Trillions..Shez sooo sweet my goodness sugar n chocolates are just jealous of her,a good advicer,a woman who holds success in whatevr she does.I still rembr,wen i was small i had a big chocolate n all my sisters wer rite der in front of me but dono why i shared dat chocolate only wid this prsn dats because shez so sweet :) shez got a very well understanding nature,i feel so close to her wen i talk to her,a caring person,tender hearted,her voice is very warm n soothing,laughs wholeheartedly,knows wat to do in any given situation,has a good capacity of handling things,very friendly too,i even find that friend thingy in her apart from being a sister,shez strong,n has got beauty wid brains n also a great artist,painter,designer,shez got so many thoughts in her brain,a woman of love,n i think God mite have moulded her so patiently n that is why shez so beautiful.Loadsa love :-*God Bless you !!!

Rajeev(F.R.I.E.N.D): Diana always asks every1 to reply to the mail in which she had asked to describe her in 1 word,But i have not yet got that word which will individually describe her.Most of the times she keeps on laughing as if some1 has dropped the laughing gas bomb, for remaining time she keepson beating some1 or the other. For the moment she is happy n very next moment she gets angry. Most of the times confused but she will never agree on that. Will study for whole night (n sleep in day) before exams but still will have crossed fingers n frightenedbefore the results. She gives u many reasons to get angry on her n even more reasons to forget that anger. Her 5 minutes of orkutting n checking mails never get over till the lab is closed or net is gone. She herself might be ill but will never forget to remind others of there tablets. Keeps on talking with friends for hours on cell(dabba) when its working n then keeps on checking whether its activated or not when dhirubhai cuts the line for her large bills.
Afraid... afraid of exams, afraid of results, afraid of crossing roads, afraid of fast driving, afraid of getting home late, afraid of dhirubhai(i mean the bill), afraid of coming late to lecture(but still always late), afraid of this n afraid of that, afraid of getting afraid ???,...... But still what makes her different from others is her smile, her caring nature, her pure heart n of-course her brown hairs ;-) Still many things could be added but then it will be an essay........But truly speaking she is the BEST FRIEND one can have.....ALWAYS KEEP SMILING.............

Vineeth(BROTHER): dIANa pRiNCeSs DianAmujhe tere paas hai AANAthe smartesterest BlONDe, her beauty u'd diE fOR, Shez dA Love u'd seaRch fORher cOmpany u'd want mORe,she is never a bORei always cry FOR More(wah! wah! irshaad)an amazing artist (thanx to her drawings in my books, i managed to paSS my skOOln paR mein PaanchVi PasS Se tEEZ nahIN HuU :()haRd wOrkeR, i pray that all her endeavouRs cOme trUe amen!shez always been an encOuRRagemEnt to me!i want to write the best testi for U but i am runNing ouT woRds (blame my english teacher) but "its only words and words are all i have to take your heart away!"U deserve MORE, LOVE YA ;)PS : hOw i wish HoW i WiSh u wErE hErEBEbo BebO be ....

Divya(F.R.I.E.N.D): Hi Rebbu and Prants(this is for u both),Gone are the days when we used to be crazy bout occupying the middle seat in college.... but each time i remember that, many more wonderful moments jus cross by my mind and heart, bringing tears to my eyes, thinking why cant i get back those days!!!!!!Those beautiful awesome days we spent in tuitions(half awake), the enjoyable days when we used to go for rides, and the most splendid one being that ride when we 3 of us fell from Rebbu's Kinetic jus in front of our college gate, giving an alarm to evryone who wud nt have noticed if i had nt turned on the horn....hehehehe:)))... indeed great memories.......All the time in our college was spent standing outside the class for chemistry, as we had a grt collaboration with our Chemistry Miss....(Gals i hope u remember this).. And our secret escapes to degree college canteen, acting as though we were Degree college students.....Not to forget the Sanskrit classes when we used to get caught making fun of our Sanskrit Miss....:)

Jaideep(F.R.I.E.N.D): THE BEAUTY WITH BRAINSVery caring and modest.Is a bit childish and gullible sometimes, but this gal is the most responsible person.We friends like her liveliness, brings smiles to faces of all people around her.Does well to achieve her goals and helps others achieve theirs.Hey Diana, you`ve got just about everything. You`re intelligent, beautiful, caring, sensitive.Its the strength and confidence which is missing. Be strong, start taking the initiative in everything.We are always there for you (and so is God)One of my best friends.(Only few months till college ends, hope we stay friends forever :))

Solomon(MunnaUncle): DIANA THE GERMAN QUEEN.....hmmmmmmm...ANYTHING I SAY IS LITTLE ABOUT THIS SWEET GIRL, CAUSE I DONT KNOW MUCH ALL I KNOW ABOUT HER IS THAT SHE IS A CHORUS OF LAUGHTER IN THE SONG OF LIFE...SHE LAUGHS WHEN HAPPY, LAUGHS WHEN SAD, LAUGHS WHEN YA TELL A JOKE, LAUGHS WHEN YOU DONT..(MAKES THE ONE SHE's LAUGHING AT A JOKER..HAAHA)EMOTIONS ARE DEEP INSIDE CAN'T MAKE OUT, AN INDIVIDUAL WITH FEW WORDS AND MORE LAUGHS...SO DARLING, AS THE SAYING GOES "LAUGH AND THE WORLD LAUGHS WITH YOU CRY AND YOU CRY ALONE, SO CHOOSE THE FORMER, AND LAUGH, FOR THE WORLD LOOKS BETTER THAT WAY....CLIMB EVERY MOUNTAIN, FOLLOW EVERY DREAM GO AROUND THE GLOBE AND MEET ME ON TOP OF IT....YUP LOOKING FORWARD TO MEET U IN VAMRIKA..SWEET GIRL THAT YOU ARE MAY ALL YOU WISHES ASPIRATIONS DREAMS AND ENDEAVOURS BEAR SWEET FRUITS FOR THE GLORY OF GOD AND PRIDE OF THE FAMILY...TAKE CARE LOVE YOU...WITH LOTS OF LOVE AND PRAYERS AS ALWAYS........OKE OKADU.....MUNCLE..(CHaA..)

Akshat(FRIEND): hie, back with another testi for a dear frendi..just like old times, she is one of the sweetest person i hav encountered in ma lyf.. she is a kinda person hu wil make ya feel special, she wil make ya feel good.. she helps wen a person needs a shoulder to cry, a hand to hold.. she is a very very caring and helping type of person.. very very loyal.. one funny thing I lyk abt her is that she is a pure hyderabadi, but she is a punjabban type of kudi.. she is a kiddoo at heart, but at tough times, she is a very very responsible person.. i personally, dont pass any chance I get to spend with her, she makes me feel nice, her company is very soothing, comforting, relaxing..three cheers to you Dear..
Another testi, pehle wale mein jageh khatam ho gayi thi..one thing I should say that she is very "Intelligent".. very very very very afraid of crossing the roads, and also afraid of walking by the road when her companion is a dog, she is damn scared of dogz.. she has a beautiful smile, i love her smile, a kinda smile that makes all your sadness and trouble go away.. she has one hellova naughty mind.. and yeah, one more thing, almost skipped my mind, she likes beating people, majak-majak mein bohat tej maar deti hai, but jab pyar se sorry bolti hai to sara gussa hawa mein ud jata hai.. and, she is an "Orkut-Freak".. baithne se pehle bolti hai ki bas 2 ya 5 minute mein band kar degi, but when she starts, she goes on and on and on.. ghanto beet jate hai, but she doesnot get bored with it, """looks like a junoon to me"""..
hie, back again, with another testi, kya karu, jitna likhta hu, utna hi kam lagta hai... a phone freak too, jab call aata hai, to it seems like that call lasts for at least half an hour, if she is in college; baki ghar par to pata nahi, kitni baat karti hogi.. a thing which I like about her is that she is ""pure at heart"".. another thing I like abt her is her laughter.. a complete fun-loving person who is always grasping a chance to laugh, make others laugh, crack jokes, she will almost laugh at any thing.. aur kya batau, is pagli ke bare mein...??one more good quality abt her is her way of frendship.. aisa lagta hai ki woh jis se milti hai, un sab se uski dosti ho jati hai.. mai to ek dua karunga bhagwan se, ki yeh hamesha meri dost rahe, kyunki aise dost bade hi kaam hote hai aur badi hi mushkil se milte hai...god bless you always...always smile...

Naveen(ANNA): Well well what can i say about this sweet girl diana, she is like a sister to me... Rebbu thats how i call her... only people who know her realise how lucky they are.Fun to be with...hmmm...has a cute innocent smile...but(dnt wana tel the truth)..has a great shinny silky browny hair...she is so full of life... the best company around you... she is friendly, bubbly but always want to stay at home may be missing home since she is in pune, she really enjoys her life... she values her friends a lot... see within her mentally, Bottom line - she is one of the best persons i met in my life...

Namrata(FRIEND): I dont remember when we becomes friendsbut we always shares ours feeling,it might be anything...She is very emotional..get nervous by small things...little bit confused(99 out of 100).....She is Diana ...kid,naughty,preity,helping,pagal,down to earth(I think this is best quality in her),try to always spread happiness everywhere........her favourite are "Gandi,Motti,Kamini","Ja re tu","Nind aa rahi hai& Headache ho raha hai"..always there not only for me but also for others...,,and specially always there for teach anything...thanks for everything yarBless You....

Satya(FRIEND): Daina (Gaddum!!!!!) is one of the most natural and genuinely nice people I've ever met. She has this awesome zest and passion for living that make a lot of our liveslook kinda drab. A great conversationalist, her emotions, constant smile and wit will often cause serious delays in you asking your waiter for the check!And of course, she's hard working and talented and a simple & cute personality and very simple at heart. Someone you know you can trust as a lifelong friend.

Yash(FRIEND): I call her Mom..and I really mean it.., she is one of the most sweet persons i met in my life, I wish God bless her always and help her to achive her Goals and DREAMS....

PS: Puttin up testimonials here might seam like testimonial for a novel, or for a product..!
WHATEVER...#!$%^&*//.....!!!!!!
I treasure them, So I wanted them to be here, close to me :)