From Fear to Faith

This is one of the life transforming incident in my life... and one of the times when God manifested himself to me and increased my faith. Most of the actions in my life were based on fear...and all questions like 'what if... ?' would come to my mind... I think most of the times it was unconscious... I had many fears in  my life... If I look back and read one of the testimonies that I got on my orkut profile from my close friend, he says I am afraid of everything...!! finally he puts a question "afraid of being afraid?" Hmmm.. may be yes I was really afraid of everything in my life... Yes and that is what it is when life is without Jesus! I could trace the fears to some stories that I heard or to the things that I had been through which have caused fear in my heart...

I was most afraid of darkness!! and I was even scared to move from one room to another in my own house when I wake up during the night... I used to switch on all the lights in the way and walk and come back switching them off and finally jump on to my bed..! many times I got hurt while running :) During those moments I used to truly face the FEAR and I used to feel or think that some one was around the corner trying to catch hold of me and drag me off - donno where!? perhaps even I used to pray and go while in dark, but I would more concentrate on my heart beat or on my thoughts rather than concentrating on how wonderfull and how close my God can be!

This was the very reason that when I was in pune, my friends used to stay with me in the night when my sister was in night shifts. They even used to tease me. After coming to know the LORD, once my sister was in hyderabad and I was alone in at home. That day I was very much scared to sleep... and I thought I will either watch TV or I will talk over phone and sleep off. But to my surprise, the power went off even before I could sleep... I was so scared and I started calling and messaging my frined and my sisters. Though I dint show how much fearfull I was, I just told the situation in which I was in... and everyone suggested me to pray. I was just wondering, why should I fear? even after coming to know my Jesus personally.??? I started praying and the power came. Though the darkness was not there, I was little bit afraid of the way the dogs were barking....!! :) So I prayed.. and I opend the bible, and the chapter that I read that day was Psalm  4. The Lord spoke to me through the verse, where King David says... "I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety." Ps4:8
I was back to my senses... and God again lifted me up and His word gave me so much strength..!! Such an awesome God!.
I never knew that there was something like this written in bible...!!
I never read this before...!!
No one told me to read this passage..!!
It was God who was talking to me..!

Yes..! The fear vanished..!
Later in  my days I read the word on the armor of God where Paul is asking us to wear the shield of FAITH!
Yes, he uses FAITH as shield because the devil knows that when we are weak in our FAITH it can attack us by giving us fear... Fear is the opposite of Faith... Devil knows taht once you are strong in your FAITH, it has to flee from us! so it will attack on our FAITH. with faith we can quench all the feary darts of the evil one...as a shield which the warior uses...God has helped me and still helping me to move on and grow in FAITH along with Him :)
Yes, now Iam not scared of the darkness :) because I knw He Lives...