JESUS Made me to Forgive....

Few years back, I have written a blog about 'letting go of the resentment'... But that was the time when I was still angry... and actually speaking I was not letting go of the resentment... neither was I willing to let go of the resentment...While Jesus was making me to forgive, He was helping me. I always had a thought that forgiving people is really hard... and I felt very unfair to forgive when people hurt me... But I have choosen to forgive... and I think, this choice had made a big difference in me... The process was like sowing the seed of obedience in me... and once this seed was sown, He is faithful to bring a harvest of blessing to us one way or another...This unforgiveness was hindering my FAITH from working... as the scripture says clearly in Mark 11:22-26 that unforgiveness hinders our faith from working...We reap what we sow.... we sow mercy, and we will reap mercy....we sow judgment, and we will reap judgment...So I was doing myself a favor—and forgiven... and my fellowship with Jesus started flowing freely... and while I was angry, the devil was trying to get the foothold.. but now I realise that Jesus has strengthened me. I asked Jesus daily to give me the strength to forgive... and I complained to Him about myself... about how bad I felt when I see the person on whom Iam angry... and how their actions and behaviour effected me... I used to tell Jesus that Iam not able to do it alone... I felt the resentment... the bitterness... when they flourish... when they are happy... though Iam not to that extent of jelousy... but it used to pinch me...Initially I was not feeling like forgiving... It was a tough time... for me to resist all my bitter thoughts...I used to tell myself.. "Diana, you are not supposed to do it... you are not supposed to think like this..." But the very next moment...more thoughts were invoked... and I had all the bitter memories always fresh in my mind...and I remembered the time when my friend behave strangely... and the time when I used to listen to ppl talk bad about her..and the time when people thought bad about me... It was too Hard for me to do it alone... actually now I know that it is impposible to do it alone...Then I started involving Jesus...& what I used to do is, when everI had the thought about that person... I used to complain about myself to Jesus... and He always helped me immediatly...to forget every thought... and he removed the bitterness...and immediatly I acknowledged Him... and given Him the Praise... this gave me immense Joy... It was too Hard for me to do it alone... actually now I know that it is really immposible to forgive by our own self...

Jesus helped me in many ways... First thing He did is, He gave me the heart to forgive... He soften my heart... He spoke to me in many ways... through Bible... through people... through books... and that was the time when I always heard ppl talk about forgiveness :) He convincted me and also gave me the strength to overcome the situation Iwas in.

The first thing we need to do is Involve Jesus.... take His help... Next thing is we must stop talking about it... Even in doing this we need help from Jesus.

Realise that "vengeance belongs to the Lord".... Let God pay you for past injustices...hurts....dishonor...insults...anything....Do not try to collect information from other people, because the people can’t pay you....people can give you hope...Also, forgive yourself for past sins and hurts you have caused others...You can’t pay people back, or if you cant forgive ask God to...

Many times, I have heard ppl say that they are angry with God....because their life didn’t turn out the way they thought it should be... How can you think...about what you want... when you donno what will happen tommorow...Jesus knows what is in hold for you...He is always just. There may be things you don’t understand, but God loves you, and people make a serious mistake when they don’t receive help from the only One who can truly help them...LORD says in Jer29:11 as..."For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" and also in Is55:8 as "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts.”... My point in saying all this is that JESUS is our only help in times of need. I know that during my pain I cried out to God and poured out my grief to Him, but then, instead of being still and letting Him minister to me, I ran around like a crazy person, I kept talking about my circumstances... about the people who have hurt me... trying to be happy this way... thinking that Iam letting this anger out so I will be happy... trying to comfort myself... trying to change my circumstances... But it didn’t work out. “Be still and know that I am God,” He says. And He means it. He is the only source of help for us in times of need.

So if you’re struggling and not finding the peace and comfort of the Holy Spirit, take stock and see if you, like me, are running around, refusing to wait on God...refusing to listen to His still voice.. It’s only in the waiting that we can actually feel His warm and comforting touch. Without waiting on Him, we miss Him entirely.

You may even need to forgive a situation or an object—the mobile... the pen.. the machines.. the product you are working on..., a certain store that may have cheated you, a car/vehicle that always gave you trouble, etc. Get rid of all poison that comes from bitterness, resentment and unforgiveness...And remember Proverbs 4:23: "Keep and guard your heart with all vigilance...for out of it flow the springs of life."

Praise be to the LORD...!